Why Cant I Breathe Whenever I Think About you?

Wednesday, November 19, 2003

today was kinda bleh..i failed my chemistry exam or at least i think i did..i wrote letter like the usual in 2nd and 5th cuz i hate those classes and yeah the rest of the classes wer da same..just sat there and act like i paying attetion instead i was just sittin thinkin on wa da hell im doin cuz iono wa im suppose to do next..yeah o well yeah..lunch i saw a scene that took my breath away but i cant say or micheal will use wa i did as blackmail! but it was hillarious lol yeah den after school i had a sophomore exec meeting and since im VP i guess i had to go haha it was iight though we were plannin Sadies hym..who should i ask to Sadies haha doubt ill even go fo fun prolli end up workin =/ but yeah o wel..den came outside and sat wit holly and talked wit micheal and whoever was around si si iono saw some things thats buggin me but i guess i got to remember my quote from yesteday...o wel i dont want to be the conflict wit it so yeah just goin to go on about doin watever im doing...im home alone riote now yippee hoping ryan is on his way yeh OMG it was soo funny at lunch after the bell me clara and christina were walkin to class and some freshmen boys wer holdin a gatorade bottle screamin drink it to this guy omg der so gay act like u dont hav alcohol in it..haha i aint dumb it was nice..geez i need the feedin haha clara yea me and clara are goin to the phantom planet concert next week yep yep cant wait a night to get out i cant believe thanksgivin is next week ...o wel time to eat and get fat the run it off! yeah wel im out... o heres the poem i promised to giv u the one i wrote yesterday...

Started off with that Kiss....
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i thought i had the perfect life
nice grades, great friends, a family, and my one and only
i didnt know we could get so far
in this life that shoots out like a gazing star
we just went to a party had a couple of drinks
the he said "we should dont you think?"
we hoped in his car and he drove me to this spot
undressed me and he wouldnt stop
after the worst pain in my life
i ran inside screamin and crying why did i dink why did this happen to me!
A week went by and i heard the rumors fly
i took the test and now my life is at risk
i grabbed my keys and got in the car
i drove down the road and popped in the pills
you could tell i was on the verge to kill
not only myself but what was forming inside as well
but iono i guess i cant deal
so tell all of those who decided to spill
and tell the ones who i loved that before they fall in love
with the one you think is yours
dont fall for his whine cuz heyll ruin your life just like he ruined myne
i wraped my cross around my wrist and drove off this cliff
cuz my life probably wouldnt missed
Just all you remember how far it went when it started out with just a kiss..
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haha its not fully done but i was bored in spanish so wa can i say..and yeah the question is some of this true and the answer yes it is but dont worry i dont drive! lol

more gays shiz..
x.] name=melissa
[x.] birthday = January 7
[x.] piercings = 2 one one each ear
[x.] tattoos = nopes
[x.] height = 5'5
[x.] shoe size = 7
[x.] hair color = brown
[x.] length = uhm 567 cm wtf ..long?
[x.] siblings = is that what u call him...a brother
[x.] pets = three dogs (roxie kirby and beans) and like 4 fish!
[x.] movie you rented=i havent rented a movie in forever...
[x.] movie you bought = i dont buy movies either haha
[x.] song you listened to =cute witout da e duh
[x.] song that was stuck in your head = shut up just shut up shut up haha
[x.] thing you've downloaded = i got banned from d/l haha
[x.] cd you bought = too long ago i cant remember
[x.] cd you listened to = my mix cd?
[x.] person you've called = ryan
[x.] person that's called you = ryan
[x.] tv show you've watched = uhm..prolli somethin on mtv
[x.] person you were thinking of = duh..u already noe who u are =]

Um..
[x.] you have a bf or gf = nopes
[x.] you have a crush on someone = yea
[x.] you wish you could live somewhere else =sometimes
[x.] you think about suicide = not recently
[x.] you believe in online dating = no, i have ta see prince charming for myself
[x.] you want more piercings = DUH the belly ish gettin done!
[x.] you want more tattoos =how can i want more wen i dont got one
[x.] you drink = HEY where would u get that from haha ..
[x.] you do drugs = nope, they're bad for u
[x.] you smoke = nope
[x.] you like cleaning = o ifu call hiding things yea
[x.] you write in cursive or print = depends on meeh mood
[x.] you carry a donor card = nope do i even carry a wallet lol

For or Against..
[x.] teenage smoking = against
[x.] doing drugs = trying it is okay, but that all
[x.] premarital sex = hey if u r ready for a child b my guest!
[x.] driving drunk = after wa happened hell yeah
[x.] soap operas = nope my life is already drama why watch other people drama

Best...
[x.] tv show = DUH THE FUCKING OC!!!!!
[x.] thing in the world =stars and wa clara said being loved back by someone u love
[x.] thing to collect = iono
[x.] colors of all time = lavender red black
[x.] thing to do on a rainy day = drink hot coco, and cuddle
[x.] feeling in the world = all the things u feel wen ure loved by the person that u love

Have You...
[x.] ever cried over a boy = yeah
[x.] ever lied to someone = yeah
[x.] ever been in a fist fight = not that i remember

What...
[x.] perfume do you use = body sprays!= love spell..sweet pea
[x.] shoes do you wear = chucks
[x.] are you scared of = losing the ones u love..
Number...
[x.] of continents I have lived in?: one
[x.] of drugs taken illegally?: laughs out loud...
[x.] of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends?:4
[x.] of people I consider my enemies?: 2
[x.] of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: haha once
[x.] of scars on my body?: lots
Have You Ever...
[x.] Fallen for your best friend? yep.......
[x.] Made out with JUST a friend? yep
[x.] Been in love? does anyone even noe wat love is..mor elike a deep lust
[x.] Cheated on someone? nopes

Who Was The Last Person...
[x.] You touched? =uhm..i touched trisa cheek?
[x.] You talked to? jason
[x.] You hugged? uhm...i didnt get hugs today haha

Have You/Are You/Do You....
[x.] Considered a life of crime? nope
[x.] Considered being a hooker? hey watever pays ..haha jk
[x.] Considered being a pimp? haha no
[x.] Are you psycho? nopes never
[x.] Split personalities? haha sure
[x.] Schizophrenic? no, im strait
[x.] Obsessive compulsive? haha maybe
[x.] Panic? sometimes
[x.] Anxiety? sometime
[x.] Depressed? almsot everyday
[x.] Obsessed with hate? no, that's bad, just let it go!!
[x.] Dream of mutilated bodies, blood, death, and gore?uhm..
[x.] Dream of doing those things instead of just seeing them? sure

Are You...
[x.] Understanding: on a good day
[x.] Open-minded: sometimes
[x.] Interesting: why yes lol
[x.] Hungry: hell yeah ..wen aint i
[x.] Friendly: if u look like a nice person
[x.] Childish: nope
[x.] Healthy: not really
[x.] Difficult: kinda?
[x.] Thirsty: yes lEmonaDe
[x.] Responsible: iono
[x.] Sad: depends
[x.] Happy: depends
[x.] Trusting: depends on the subject on hand
[x.] Talkative:kinda
[x.] Lonely: yeppas
[x.] Own a webcam? no
[x.] Ever get off the damn computer? ummmm i sleep

Currents
[x.] Current Clothes: sweats and a tank
[x.] Current Mood: confused
[x.] Current Taste: gum
[x.] Current Hair: sloppy bun
[x.] Current Annoyance: people who lead other people on
[x.] Current Smell: air
[x.] Current thing you ought to be doing: homework, lol never
[x.] Current Book: the perfect little girl
[x.] Current DVD In Player: iono
[x.] Current Refreshment: Lemonade
[x.] Current Worry: i wonder
[x.] Current Crush: wouldnt u like to know...

On Dating....
[x.] Long or short hair? short... doenst really matter
[x.] Dark or blond hair? doesnt matter mo on da dark side though
[x.] Tall or short? a few inches taller then me
[x.] Mr. Sensitive or Mr. Funny? inbetween gots to make me laugh though
[x.] Good boy or bad boy? inbetween is perfect!!
[x.] Dark or light eyes? i love them if i can get lost in them
[x.] Pierced or no? depends

On Preferences....
[x.] Chocolate milk or hot chocolate? chocolate milk
[x.] McDonalds or Burger King? iono
[x.] Marry the perfect lover or the perfect friend? wel isnt the perfect love perfect to u so shouldnt get b a friend! DUH!
[x.] Sweet or sour? sour
[x.] Root Beer or Dr. Pepper? lemonade
[x.] Sappy/action/comedy/horror? doesnt matter
[x.] Cats or dogs? dogs
[x.] Ocean or Pool? the ocean... duh SuRF!! haha
[x.] Cool Ranch or Nacho Cheese? depends wa yer eatin it wit
[x.] Mud or Jell-O wrestling? neither
[x.] With or without ice-cubes? with
[x.] Shine or rain? rain duh i love the rain
[x.] Winter/Summer/Fall/Spring? summer
[x.] Vanilla or Chocolate? vanilla
[x.] Gloves or mittens? gloves
[x.] Eyes open or closed when making out? closed
[x.] Fly or breathe under water? is it possible if i could get both?
[x.] Bunk-bed or waterbed? waterbed so i can poke holes!
[x.] Chewing gum or hard candy? chewing gum all the time
[x.] Motor boat or sailboat? depends
[x.] Lights on or off? depends watcha do ;]

xoxo at 6:39 PM

b l a c k n d s t a r s
the life of a blackened star trying to stay alive
Wednesday, November 19, 2003 today was kinda bleh..i failed my chemistry exam or at least i think i did..i wrote letter like the usual in 2nd and 5th cuz i hate those classes and yeah the rest of the classes wer da same..just sat there and act like i paying attetion instead i was just sittin thinkin on wa da hell im doin cuz iono wa im suppose to do next..yeah o well yeah..lunch i saw a scene that took my breath away but i cant say or micheal will use wa i did as blackmail! but it was hillarious lol yeah den after school i had a sophomore exec meeting and since im VP i guess i had to go haha it was iight though we were plannin Sadies hym..who should i ask to Sadies haha doubt ill even go fo fun prolli end up workin =/ but yeah o wel..den came outside and sat wit holly and talked wit micheal and whoever was around si si iono saw some things thats buggin me but i guess i got to remember my quote from yesteday...o wel i dont want to be the conflict wit it so yeah just goin to go on about doin watever im doing...im home alone riote now yippee hoping ryan is on his way yeh OMG it was soo funny at lunch after the bell me clara and christina were walkin to class and some freshmen boys wer holdin a gatorade bottle screamin drink it to this guy omg der so gay act like u dont hav alcohol in it..haha i aint dumb it was nice..geez i need the feedin haha clara yea me and clara are goin to the phantom planet concert next week yep yep cant wait a night to get out i cant believe thanksgivin is next week ...o wel time to eat and get fat the run it off! yeah wel im out... o heres the poem i promised to giv u the one i wrote yesterday... Started off with that Kiss.... =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=- i thought i had the perfect life nice grades, great friends, a family, and my one and only i didnt know we could get so far in this life that shoots out like a gazing star we just went to a party had a couple of drinks the he said "we should dont you think?" we hoped in his car and he drove me to this spot undressed me and he wouldnt stop after the worst pain in my life i ran inside screamin and crying why did i dink why did this happen to me! A week went by and i heard the rumors fly i took the test and now my life is at risk i grabbed my keys and got in the car i drove down the road and popped in the pills you could tell i was on the verge to kill not only myself but what was forming inside as well but iono i guess i cant deal so tell all of those who decided to spill and tell the ones who i loved that before they fall in love with the one you think is yours dont fall for his whine cuz heyll ruin your life just like he ruined myne i wraped my cross around my wrist and drove off this cliff cuz my life probably wouldnt missed Just all you remember how far it went when it started out with just a kiss.. =-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-=-= haha its not fully done but i was bored in spanish so wa can i say..and yeah the question is some of this true and the answer yes it is but dont worry i dont drive! lol more gays shiz.. x.] name=melissa [x.] birthday = January 7 [x.] piercings = 2 one one each ear [x.] tattoos = nopes [x.] height = 5'5 [x.] shoe size = 7 [x.] hair color = brown [x.] length = uhm 567 cm wtf ..long? [x.] siblings = is that what u call him...a brother [x.] pets = three dogs (roxie kirby and beans) and like 4 fish! [x.] movie you rented=i havent rented a movie in forever... [x.] movie you bought = i dont buy movies either haha [x.] song you listened to =cute witout da e duh [x.] song that was stuck in your head = shut up just shut up shut up haha [x.] thing you've downloaded = i got banned from d/l haha [x.] cd you bought = too long ago i cant remember [x.] cd you listened to = my mix cd? [x.] person you've called = ryan [x.] person that's called you = ryan [x.] tv show you've watched = uhm..prolli somethin on mtv [x.] person you were thinking of = duh..u already noe who u are =] Um.. [x.] you have a bf or gf = nopes [x.] you have a crush on someone = yea [x.] you wish you could live somewhere else =sometimes [x.] you think about suicide = not recently [x.] you believe in online dating = no, i have ta see prince charming for myself [x.] you want more piercings = DUH the belly ish gettin done! [x.] you want more tattoos =how can i want more wen i dont got one [x.] you drink = HEY where would u get that from haha .. [x.] you do drugs = nope, they're bad for u [x.] you smoke = nope [x.] you like cleaning = o ifu call hiding things yea [x.] you write in cursive or print = depends on meeh mood [x.] you carry a donor card = nope do i even carry a wallet lol For or Against.. [x.] teenage smoking = against [x.] doing drugs = trying it is okay, but that all [x.] premarital sex = hey if u r ready for a child b my guest! [x.] driving drunk = after wa happened hell yeah [x.] soap operas = nope my life is already drama why watch other people drama Best... [x.] tv show = DUH THE FUCKING OC!!!!! [x.] thing in the world =stars and wa clara said being loved back by someone u love [x.] thing to collect = iono [x.] colors of all time = lavender red black [x.] thing to do on a rainy day = drink hot coco, and cuddle [x.] feeling in the world = all the things u feel wen ure loved by the person that u love Have You... [x.] ever cried over a boy = yeah [x.] ever lied to someone = yeah [x.] ever been in a fist fight = not that i remember What... [x.] perfume do you use = body sprays!= love spell..sweet pea [x.] shoes do you wear = chucks [x.] are you scared of = losing the ones u love.. Number... [x.] of continents I have lived in?: one [x.] of drugs taken illegally?: laughs out loud... [x.] of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends?:4 [x.] of people I consider my enemies?: 2 [x.] of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: haha once [x.] of scars on my body?: lots Have You Ever... [x.] Fallen for your best friend? yep....... [x.] Made out with JUST a friend? yep [x.] Been in love? does anyone even noe wat love is..mor elike a deep lust [x.] Cheated on someone? nopes Who Was The Last Person... [x.] You touched? =uhm..i touched trisa cheek? [x.] You talked to? jason [x.] You hugged? uhm...i didnt get hugs today haha Have You/Are You/Do You.... [x.] Considered a life of crime? nope [x.] Considered being a hooker? hey watever pays ..haha jk [x.] Considered being a pimp? haha no [x.] Are you psycho? nopes never [x.] Split personalities? haha sure [x.] Schizophrenic? no, im strait [x.] Obsessive compulsive? haha maybe [x.] Panic? sometimes [x.] Anxiety? sometime [x.] Depressed? almsot everyday [x.] Obsessed with hate? no, that's bad, just let it go!! [x.] Dream of mutilated bodies, blood, death, and gore?uhm.. [x.] Dream of doing those things instead of just seeing them? sure Are You... [x.] Understanding: on a good day [x.] Open-minded: sometimes [x.] Interesting: why yes lol [x.] Hungry: hell yeah ..wen aint i [x.] Friendly: if u look like a nice person [x.] Childish: nope [x.] Healthy: not really [x.] Difficult: kinda? [x.] Thirsty: yes lEmonaDe [x.] Responsible: iono [x.] Sad: depends [x.] Happy: depends [x.] Trusting: depends on the subject on hand [x.] Talkative:kinda [x.] Lonely: yeppas [x.] Own a webcam? no [x.] Ever get off the damn computer? ummmm i sleep Currents [x.] Current Clothes: sweats and a tank [x.] Current Mood: confused [x.] Current Taste: gum [x.] Current Hair: sloppy bun [x.] Current Annoyance: people who lead other people on [x.] Current Smell: air [x.] Current thing you ought to be doing: homework, lol never [x.] Current Book: the perfect little girl [x.] Current DVD In Player: iono [x.] Current Refreshment: Lemonade [x.] Current Worry: i wonder [x.] Current Crush: wouldnt u like to know... On Dating.... [x.] Long or short hair? short... doenst really matter [x.] Dark or blond hair? doesnt matter mo on da dark side though [x.] Tall or short? a few inches taller then me [x.] Mr. Sensitive or Mr. Funny? inbetween gots to make me laugh though [x.] Good boy or bad boy? inbetween is perfect!! [x.] Dark or light eyes? i love them if i can get lost in them [x.] Pierced or no? depends On Preferences.... [x.] Chocolate milk or hot chocolate? chocolate milk [x.] McDonalds or Burger King? iono [x.] Marry the perfect lover or the perfect friend? wel isnt the perfect love perfect to u so shouldnt get b a friend! DUH! [x.] Sweet or sour? sour [x.] Root Beer or Dr. Pepper? lemonade [x.] Sappy/action/comedy/horror? doesnt matter [x.] Cats or dogs? dogs [x.] Ocean or Pool? the ocean... duh SuRF!! haha [x.] Cool Ranch or Nacho Cheese? depends wa yer eatin it wit [x.] Mud or Jell-O wrestling? neither [x.] With or without ice-cubes? with [x.] Shine or rain? rain duh i love the rain [x.] Winter/Summer/Fall/Spring? summer [x.] Vanilla or Chocolate? vanilla [x.] Gloves or mittens? gloves [x.] Eyes open or closed when making out? closed [x.] Fly or breathe under water? is it possible if i could get both? [x.] Bunk-bed or waterbed? waterbed so i can poke holes! [x.] Chewing gum or hard candy? chewing gum all the time [x.] Motor boat or sailboat? depends [x.] Lights on or off? depends watcha do ;] xoxo at 6:39 PM
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